“There was a grieving process involved with ‘letting go’ of this idea that I should want to want children.”
This is a choice I am affirming for myself all the time.
I went through a profound crisis of self-reflection upon the birth of my nephew and at the time couldn’t articulate my thoughts and feelings. Later I came to realise that the life of motherhood that my sister had chosen didn’t seem to align with who I was or what I wanted, and there was a grieving process involved with “letting go” of this idea that I should want to want children.
(My husband is an only child and has never wanted or liked children, even when he was a child, so fortunately we have been able to make this decision together relatively easily!)
I nurture children as a teacher, and I am enjoying watching my life and career path unfold day by day. I cherish the freedom and space to ‘choose my own adventure’.